Beautiful

Mine.

The Party

Now, not to put down events like Pleasure Salon or In the Flesh, which are really the only kinkster/blogger events I’ve been to and are both fun in their own way, this calendar party was a much more highbrow affair than anything blog related I have been to. There was a distinct air of occasion. Everyone was dressed up, suits and ties and corsets and low cut dresses and all manner of finery. There was also a distinct New York vibe, which was certainly apropos.

Coming in a little early the Babeland bags were lined up and the calendar girls were buzzing around. Sinclair looking debonair in a velvet suit. Tess, defying gravity with her almost falling out cleavage. Mariella looking a bit more innocent in her demure black dress and wide eyed loveliness. Everything was perfect as the masses lined up outside, ready to party.

I’d been to the White Rabbit a few times before and I’ve always liked it. The drinks were Happy Hour cheap until 9 and that certainly aided in the crowd’s loosening up. Everyone was super friendly and flirty. There was a running joke about how every introduction had two parts. People were introduced by name followed by awkward handshakes, then they were introduced by blog names which was followed by eyes opening wide in recognition and then hugs.

It sort of blew me away that people actually knew who I was. Fellow tweeters, tumblrs, bloggers and kinky internet denizens. It seemed like everyone there had either corresponded to some degree, knew each other by reputation or had fucked.

I’ll just put it out there since it was in a lot of people’s heads but no one seems to be talking about it. Jefferson had made some rumblings on Twitter about showing up and since a bevy of both his loyal friends and fiercest critics were at the party that would have been quite an event. I don’t know the man by anything but reputation, but personally was kind of excited to see the sparks fly. Drama like that doesn’t come around every day. Alas, we were both robbed and spared that spectacle.

Other than that the night was drama free. The burlesque dancers were both hot and exotic. Three women who were completely different. I’d still like to know what Sinclair was doing with one of them in the bathroom for so long. Bodyguard, indeed.

The auction was raucous and wild. It was also obviously fixed because I didn’t win anything. Viviane was the big winner, but in a wonderful turn of events I was given a Pure Wand by the calendar girls and the awesome people at njoy! My hard work as co-designer paid off! Plus I went home with Miss January! There may have been some panty ripping.

My only real gripe was the lack of a DJ. This party needed some good music and it was very lacking. Next time. And there really needs to be a lot of next times.

Sugasm # 152

This Week’s Picks

Sugarbutch Star: Maze - The Girl in the Red Dress
“She’s the kind of girl who brings out the worst in me.”

treat or … fuck
“He looked like I had just given him a car for Christmas and he gently took my hand and led me upstairs. ”

A Life Exposed and Amplified
“We were breaking the rules and being dirty.”

Mr. Sugasm Himself
Sugar Bank

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I told him I loved him. He gave me a pen.
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Unblemished

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Is Fantasizing Wrong?
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Seductor

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Dirty Boy

egg scissors

Do you want to cum? How bad?
Jake gets Punished in Spanking Movie
Kneeling In Style
Long Night in Thee Cow Shed
Marked: An Open Letter
Mistress by Proxy, part 2 : the slut
The New Bath Brush
Pimping him out

Pondering Piercings

Quickie

Sex Humour
Friday Poem: Achy Achy Cunt

Thoughts on Sex and Relationships
HNT-Time

Hubby’s Halloween Hit. Confession #167
The Space Between
Two women, two stories

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Brief News Brief

So apparently my girl, as well as the rest of the NYC Sex Blogger Calendar girls, is going to be in Time Out NY. Fancy.

I’m excited about the big party on Friday. I’m going to be decked out, a three piece suit and a strut and whole lot of people to meet and reconnect with. I better print out a dance card or something.

It has been a stressful few weeks. Work is horrible, which is pretty new since up until a while back when a lot of people were laid off I loved my job and never had a complaint about it. This is one of the reasons that posting has been less than frequent lately. Also an ex of mine is bothering Mariella. I’m trying not to react, but it is difficult. I suppose I shouldn’t even give it enough weight to bring it up here, but she broke up with me up almost a year ago and what ever slight she thinks I gave her has nothing to do with anyone but me and her.

In the news, Keith Olbermann gave an amazing passionate and intelligent rant on Prop 8 failing. Pretty much all of my life I have been in some way connected with the LGBT rights movement. I have a big family that although is old and mostly Italian is not at all conservative. A cousin of mine came out of the closet when I was a little kid and then my aunt, who I am very close with, came out in the early 90’s. My grandparents’ generation accepted everyone and I grew up just sort of expecting that sort of acceptance from everyone. In high school one of my best friend was a lesbian and I had some odd conversations explaining to people why as a straight guy gay rights were very important to me.

Keith says it perfectly.

As for the future, more stories on the way. I have some new people helping me edit them so hopefully my horribly spelling and grammar will not distract from my message of smut. More reviews will come as more products make there way to me. A big box of fun is in the mail as I type this. Fun fun fun.

Fiction - Halloween

A story inspired by a Halloween costume one friend wore and a fantasy another friend told me about.

It must have been because it was Halloween.

Violet just didn’t do things like this. She was a nice girl. She was a disciplined girl. She had a good job and a lovely apartment. She visited her parents regularly. She fed her cat and went to the gym and sent thank you cards to people who gave her gifts.

It was Halloween, though, and sometimes when you put on a costume it just changes you. It changes you enough to do something crazy, if only for one night.

Originally she really didn’t want to go to the party. She didn’t even have a costume, but her friend Christine had brought over some rabbit ears and said “Just put on the sluttiest thing you have and you can be a Playboy bunny or something!”

The thing about Violet was that she had these tits. She was a somewhat plain girl, cute, but in a girl-next-door sort of way. She had very large breasts for her frame, though, and she spent a lot of time hiding them and generally hating them. As she looked through her closet, she considered that Halloween was one of the few times in the year that she could actually show them off. After all, Violet really didn’t know many people at the party and what could it hurt?

She found a very skimpy pink top. It barely even fit over her breasts and showed several inches of cleavage. She put on her best bra, the one that really pushed her tits together and put on the low cut pink top. Looking in the mirror, she blushed a little. It wasn’t shocking for Halloween, but it was shocking for her. She pulled on a pair of jeans, chickening out on the mini skirt. Then she placed the rabbit ears on her head and applied a little too much makeup. Violet smiled at her reflection. She looked like a slut.

When the two friends arrived at the party, it was like being back in college. A lot of people were milling about with red plastic cups in their hands. Everyone was a little drunk, which made Violet uncomfortable because she didn’t like to drink. Drinking made you lose control and do stupid things and she wasn’t interested in doing that.

A dark-haired man with dark glasses eyed Violet as she walked in. He wasn’t really wearing a costume, just a pair of devil horns. Christine saw Violet looking back at him and told her “Oh, that’s James.” Christina sort of smiled a little. “We went out once or twice.”

“What’s he like?” Violet asked innocently, trying not to look back at him as he smiled at her and continued to stare.

“Oh, he’s nice enough… a little too kinky for me.”

Violet wanted to ask what she meant by that, but Christine went to get a drink. Violet went to follow her but bumped into a sandy-haired tan-skinned guy wearing a black robe, like the killer in the Scream movies.

“Hi there, I’m Peter,” he said smiling wide and staring at her tits. Violet felt like everyone was staring at her that night and the feeling was both embarrassing and a little powerful.

“Oh, I’m Violet,” she sort of mumbled with a smile.

“Your costume is hot,” he said with a grin.

She didn’t reply.

The dark-haired man with the devil horns came over and stood next to Peter. The two of them sort of smiled at each other.

“Who’s your friend?”

Peter looked her up and down, eating her up with his eyes.

“This is Violet. She’s a Playboy bunny, right?” Peter asked with a laugh.

“I’d buy that issue. I’m James,” he said with a grin, moving in on her a little.

Violet looked around for her friend, Christine, but she was no where to be found. Violet was pulled into a conversation with James and Peter. The topic started with what they all did, but moved quickly to sex and never left.

Violet wasn’t used to this. They were being so forward and she didn’t know how to react. She thought she was probably supposed to smack them or something, but she enjoyed the flirting like this. She was sort of getting addicted to their eyes on her body. A break from real conversation. The embarrassing rush of being an object for a little while.

Peter was cocky and sort of a jock, but James was smooth and intelligent. Peter looked at her body all night, while James liked to look into her eyes and guess what she was thinking.

As they spoke, Violet found herself being moved by them around the room. They would back her up a little by moving in on her, and before she knew it, she was next to a door. Peter looked at James and opened up the door. James took Violet’s hand and led her in.

“What are we doing?” she asked with a nervous laugh.

“We want to kiss you,” Peter replied with a chuckle.

The room was dark and messy. Clothes on the floor, a computer on a desk in the corner, a low bed near the window.

Violet’s eyes were moving quickly around, judging the environment, looking for her escape route. Peter closed the door behind him and turned around with the same cocky smile. James had a predatory grin that matched his devil horns.

The devil pushed her back and she tumbled to the low bed. Sitting up, wide eyed, Violet was eye-level with two belts and two zipper and four big hands. Violet started to breathe a little faster.

The two men looked at each other, communicated something with their eyes. Violet looked up at them trying to figure it out. Peter chuckled a little. His eyes were right on her cleavage. James was looking right into her eyes, though.

Violet wasn’t sure where to look or what exactly to do. Her heart was racing. This was it. She’d had fantasies about this, but it was different with two strangers in some house she’d never been to. She thought she should probably end it soon, maybe just kiss them. But the man in the devil horns leaned down and slipped his hand onto her shoulder, then around her. He pulled her head back by her hair. Suddenly, he was kissing her.

His kisses were a little rough and a little insistent, but his lips were soft. When she was kissed right, Violet’s mind sort of wandered away and she tended to do things she knew she shouldn’t. When he opened her lips a little with his tongue and then swirled around in her mouth, tasting like candy and a little beer and heat, she felt herself falling.

When the second pair of lips touched Violet’s shoulder, her body locked up for a second. The reality of it started getting her scared as well as very wet. Usually a kiss on her lips really got her started. And if a guy knew how to kiss her neck, she would totally melt. When Peter started sucking on the skin just under her ear while the devil horn guy kissed her deeper and hungrily sucked on her lips and tongue, she felt a new level of desire. It was like Violet couldn’t control herself anymore.

Four hands roaming all over her. Peter was aggressive and rough. James had knowing hands that floated over her skin and nails that dragged up her back and down her arms. Each man alone would have made her swoon with their attention, but both at the same time were making her mad.

Peter touched her breasts for the first time and he chuckled hoarsely.

“Fuck, your tits are perfect,” he whispered as he squeezed them and lifted them and his thumbs hunted for her nipples though the thickness of her shirt and bra.

As Peter grabbed and rubbed her breasts, James took her hand and pushed it against the crotch of his jeans. He was hard and although she wasn’t sure how far she wanted to take this, Violet couldn’t help holding the firm shape under his pants and wanting it.

There is something so intimate about the first time a man unzips his fly and pulls out his cock. It is usually in some intimate moment and you are seeing a part of someone that has been hidden that you may have felt a little and wondered about. This was new, though. This was two strangers.

When there was a cock in front of Violet, she could focus on it. She could worship it. She could suck it and savor it and hold it and own it. Two cocks made everything different. They both pulled at her attention. They surrounded her. She felt compelled to hold each one, go back and forth between them. The demands of it made her dizzy. The world became hard and throbbing. The smell of their bodies was overwhelming. The feel of their coarse hair and the rawness of all that skin; it was all too much, but she couldn’t stop.

Sitting, Violet jerked the two of them off a little. She wasn’t really sure how far she might go. One of them, she couldn’t even tell which anymore because she couldn’t look up, moved closer. She couldn’t take her eyes off of the two cocks. Violet licked her lips. She was a good girl, but she did love to suck cock. She really shouldn’t, but when he moved closer, the head of his cock just brushed her lip. She just held the two of them, feeling the heat and hardness of them. She closed her legs tight. She really shouldn’t. She didn’t know them.

Peter reached forward and pulled her hair. Her mouth opened and James moved forward, slipping the head of his cock between her lips. Once it was in her mouth, there was no more thought of what was wrong or right. There was only the taste of his skin, the feel of his length and the power, of making him gasp as her wet tongue slipped under his sex.

She closed her eyes and sank into the rhythm of it. Filling her mouth with saliva to wet the pushing and pulling. The build up that she needed. She couldn’t keep her eyes shut for long because she felt Peter’s hardness in her other hand.

When James pulled away and Peter moved forward, Violet was breathing hard and fast. Peter’s cock was fatter, slightly rougher and darker skinned. She licked the head of it, her hand slipping up and down James’s cock, still wet with her saliva.

Peter’s hips bucked as she licked the head. He wanted her badly. He wanted her to envelope his cock in her hot mouth. She liked that. She teased him, tightening her lips and just sucking a little on the head, letting it pop in and out of her mouth. She looked up for a moment to see James watching her. A wave of dirtiness washed over her, so much she almost stopped, but she didn’t. She had a job to do.

She sucked Peter’s cock, slipping in as much as would fit. She wet it down so it slipped in and out smoothly. She worked the shaft with her hand and sucked the tip and then gave it long strokes with her mouth.

“Fuck,” he gasped. She smiled a little between strokes.

James moved closer so that both cocks were directly in front of her face, so close the two men’s hips were touching. She moved back to James, his cock feeling cooler that Peter’s. She sucked James fast and deep, nearly gagging, then she went back to Peter. Back and forth, back and forth, until the only thing she knew was cock and thickness and wet tips and hands in her hair and on her neck and shoulders.

“I need to fuck this chick.” Peter said between gasps.

Then suddenly the two men were moving quickly around her. Peter lifted Violet up so that she was standing and pulled off her shirt.

“Fuck, that’s what I’m talking about.”

He squeezed and massaged her breasts groaning at the feel of them as James moved behind her and started unhooking her bra.

“They’re huge,” Peter marveled as he pulled off the bra.

Violet was getting nervous. This was all going fast. Kissing and touching and even a little sucking was one thing, but she wasn’t sure she could fuck a total stranger, let alone two. But his hands were so hot on her breasts. Her nipples being played with made her bite her lip.

Then James started working on her pants as Peter pulled off her shoes. The two of them were taller and stronger and she felt like a rag doll being pushed between them.

When they were done she was only wearing her panties and the two of them were standing in front of and in back of her. A hard cock pressed against her stomach and another against her back. James kissed her and Peter reached around and squeezed her breasts from behind. He took her nipples and pulled on them a little, testing her sensitivity.

She knew she should tell them to stop, but every time she thought of it, the thought would get washed away by fingers and cocks and wanting. The next thing she knew she was on the bed again, this time on her knees.

“What the fuck? She’s soaked right through her panties! Her thighs are wet. Jesus Christ, she fucking wants it.”

She didn’t even know who said it; her face was burning and eyes were closed. She knew she should really stop it, but then she was being pushed down farther, her ass up in the air and her head almost level with the bed. Then James’s cock was pressing against her lips again. It pressed and slipped against the wetness of her lips and she couldn’t help it. She opened her mouth and it slid in, pushing her back into the rhythm and the taste of him.

Peter was pulling down her panties and she knew she had to stop it. She struggled a little but the cock was in her mouth and when Peter got the panties down to her knees, he rubbed his fingers around the wetness of her and found her swollen clit and then she was overcome. The finger on her clit, the cock in her mouth, Peter leaned over and with his other hand rubbed her tit and pinched her nipple, harder now, a little too hard.

Her hips bucked and the two of them laughed.

“Damn, she has a nice ass, too,” James said. She could feel the vibrations of his voice through his cock.

“Hell yeah, she’s built to fuck. Perfect,” Peter replied as if she couldn’t even hear.

Then the first spank landed on her ass. The two of them laughed. Another spank, harder. James’s hands came up to her shoulders, holding her still. She was breathing fast out of her nose, but she needed to keep sucking. She braced herself for another slap but then felt the hot hardness of Peter’s thick cock rubbing against her.

She had to stop this, she thought. She had to, but he was sinking into her. She shouldn’t, but his hands were on her hips and James was holding her shoulder, and then he was holding her by her hair, and his cock was pushing into her mouth as Peter pushed right into her cunt. Then the whole thing became unstoppable.

She was trapped between them, sucking, being fucked, her senses overloading and her body being pushed and pulled and used. They were pistoning in and out in the same rhythm. She felt helpless to them and helpless to the itching building frightening pressure inside of her. She had never really come from just being fucked, but this was new. This was so overpowering. It just kept pounding from every direction.

“Fuck, she is so tight,” Peter said, his voice straining.

“And she doesn’t stop sucking,” James added.

Peter’s fingers grew tighter on her hips and his thrusts started harder and faster and wilder.

James was pumping into her mouth and he was gasping. They were both making grunting noises and spilling out curses and moans. They both started ramming her faster. Violet felt this rush and this fear and then she was coming hard, trying to keep sucking, but James pulled out of her mouth just as she let out a loud moan.

She was still coming when she felt the hot shots of come on her cheek and neck. Then she felt Peter pull out of her and felt more hot jets of come all over her ass and back.

Then there was emptiness. She was lying on her stomach, soaked, spent, and used. Everyone was panting. James brushed her hair back and she looked up to see his eyes, a little kinder now and his smile. The devil horns were just visible above his now tousled hair.

“We’ll make sure nobody comes in here. You should get cleaned up.”

Violet swallowed hard, the shame pouring down on her, and at the same time, her chest welling with invigoration. She had an adventure, a wild new adventure. Lifting herself back up on her knees, she arched her back.

“But you didn’t get to fuck me yet,” she said, with a smile.

The two men smiled and the dangerous game started up again.

Sugasm #152

This Week’s Picks
Help, My Friend Says I Have an Ugly Vagina!
“Say no to vagina prejudice!”

“Kiss My Boots.”
“One of the more unexpected hairpin turns I navigated in my “Coming Out” into BDSM involved a series of moments that were deceptively simple, perhaps even innocent, in a way.”
Yours, Sir
“I felt and then heard a low rumble of a slightly sadistic chuckle from him.”

Mr. Sugasm Himself
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Sass And The Sadist
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Got to Love Subby Friends
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My Muse-15th entry
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Stripper Academy
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A Life Exposed and Amplified

This post involves Daddy/little girl roleplay. Everyone involved is over eighteen.

She came in after dark. A pretty dress and a pretty pout. It was finally getting cold out, but she was wearing a dress that was a little too short for an Autumn night. She was in the hallway looking down, hands folded in front of her. She looked like a little girl who had spilled the milk.

I moved aside and she came in.

My apartment was warm and dry. I like my apartment a lot and I like to have her in it, because she is mine and she belongs in my place. I took her bag and I unbuttoned her coat and took that off as well. I hang her things up, she is quiet. She won’t look at me.

“You didn’t call me yesterday.”

“I… I’m sorry.”

I looked down at her and she shrank a little.

“Take off your shoes.”

Without her heels she was even noticeably tinier. Her eyes were huge and inky black and warm brown. She looked up at me, but didn’t meet my eyes.

“Where were you yesterday?”

“I…”

I moved forward and she moved back until she was against the wall and I was pressing against her.

“I didn’t do anything,” she mumbled, hardly audible.

When I smacked her it was crossing a line. It’s not a line I easily cross, but with her it comes easy because I trust her and she trusts me.

Her knees gave a little. I held her up by her hip.

“I know you were with him.”

“No, Daddy. I wasn’t. I swear.”

Her hair was in my hand and the familiar wince was in her eyes, I brushed my lips across hers. It wasn’t a kiss, it was a statement of ownership.

“Don’t lie to me.”

She was panting already. She knew she was going to have to admit it. She knew she was going to get it. We both knew everything that was going to happen, but it was all still overwhelming in its suspense.

I took her by her hair and I pushed her over the couch arm. I pulled up her dress and her naked ass was there in tan-lined perfection. Her legs crossed a little and she squirmed against my hand in her hair. This was all familiar and yet fresh because of the new emotions.

The hard part was that I so desperately wanted to hold her and kiss her. We had this game to play, though, and it was important and hot. I had to focus on that. The lovely game.

I loved her. My little girl. It was complicated. These games we played were complicated. At that moment she was scared and innocent, even though she was really far from either of those things. At that moment I was strong and confident and in control, though I am hardly any of those things. At that moment my heart was racing and wounded because of the things I knew she had done, but at the same time there was that wholly new fire that was ignited.

Jealousy is dangerous in me. It’s an emotion I didn’t always know what to do with. Maybe our game is about owning it. It’s a strange thing, but I had never looked at a partner as a full equal as much as I do with her. Her desire became more valid. She is wild and hungry like I am and that is both scary and potently arousing.

Maybe that’s why I had to spank her and tie her down and hurt her just a little.

“Daddy, I didn’t. Please…”

It wasn’t just a playful word. It wasn’t just a silly name. We were making things a little more dangerous. We were making things a little more vulnerable. We were breaking the rules and being dirty. Such a simple thing, but far more potent than whips and chains and leather. We were toying with something so remarkably forbidden it is virtually unspeakable.

When I spanked her it ran through both of our bodies. The room was dark, except for the streaming white of the streetlights coming in from the windows. I could just make out the red on the white of her ass and her tan lines and her skin looked like silk.

I pulled her arms back and took restraints from my pocket. I tied her up, only because she wasn’t strong enough to keep her arms behind her back so long on her own. But I like to think that she would if I told her to.

“You are a little slut?”

She sobbed, “No, Daddy, no! I’m a good girl!”

I wanted her to say it. I wanted her to admit it. I didn’t like it when she didn’t tell me the truth, but it was part of the game. It wouldn’t have been as fun if she just said it, but I honestly didn’t like it when she lied. So I spank her honestly.

The line between the game and the truth is strange. We danced around it. Sometimes I looked in her eyes and it is the real me looking at the real her, making sure things are alright. Sometimes I get choked up because it is too intense. Nothing like that has ever happened before during sexual play.

She let out an “ow” that let me know I was spanking a little hard. It was her real voice saying “ow,” not the little girl. I kept spanking though. I wanted to be a little too hard.

My hands can hurt, so I’ve been told. More than leather or wood.

When she squirmed too far, I pulled her back and soothed her. I kissed her hot red skin. My fingers slipped down and I found wet thighs, smooth lips and that swollen spot that made her moan.

“Is this what he did?”

She pushed against my hand as she shook her head violently.

“No, Daddy, no.”

I fingered her, wetting my fingers with her and pushing two in deep and slow.

“Did you see him on Saturday?”

She moaned and whimpered, both pulling away and pushing back at me.

“I… just for a little…”

I pulled my wet finger out and pushed it against her tight ass.

“No, Daddy, don’t! It’s dirty, you’re not supposed to!”

“I know what you did. You like to do dirty things don’t you, you’re a little slut aren’t you?”

She sobbed louder as my thick finger pushed into her ass.

“No, no, no,  I’m a good girl,” she pleaded.

I leaned over her and my mouth was right next to her ear and I whispered.

“I read your diary. I know what you did. You are a little fucking slut.”

She was my beautiful little angel, she still is. She is perfect. I wanted to make her cry.

“I didn’t…”

I spanked her hard four times in a row.

She froze when she heard my zipper. She gasped, waiting.

“Daddy, I’ll be good.”

“Tell me.”

“I didn’t… we just…”

She sniffled.

My hardness ached against the wetness of her, just slipping across the lips she keeps so smooth.

“Please, please…”

“Are you a slut?”

She shook her head no.

My head pierced pure heat. I knew I had to be patient.

“Tell me you are a slut.”

The she looked back at me with one eye only. Her dark hair fell over her face. Her cheek pressed against a pillow. Biting her lip, her gaze pleading.

“No. I’m good.”

“Say it.”

I push a little further into her, but I quickly pull away.

“Please, Daddy. I’m a good girl. Please.”

Then I was fucking her. Hard and fast, pressing her into the arm of the couch. Her hips in my hands, my fingers sinking into the softness of her skin.

“Take me. Please take me.”

“Say it.”

“I’m a good girl,” she cried into the pillow as I pushed harder, fucked her faster.

“Say it.”

“Noo… Daddy… Noo… I can’t!”

I stopped, I pulled her hair.

“Say it right now.”

“Don’t make me.”

I said her name.

“I’m… ”

I moved forward slipping back into her slowly.

“I’m a slut.”

I fucked her. I held her and fucked her.

“I’m your little slut, Daddy!” She yelled it.

It went on like this, but that was what I needed to hear. We would both do things, I understood that. She would have boys and I would have girls and we would do wild things, amazing things, sometimes dangerous things, but she was mine. I was hers too, maybe more than she knew. For all my domineering she had me like a puppet, I would do anything for her. I longed to pamper her as much as punish her.

Perhaps I shouldn’t have done it the moment she came in, but I knew once we dealt with it the weekend would be ours. We limped to the bed, silently kissing. I held her and she held me, emotions so high they nearly spilled out. Catharsis, power, jealousy, love, arousal and tenderness.

This was a new kind of living. It was a life exposed and amplified. It was addictive and frightening and passionate and inspirational. Everything was heightened and everything is fresh. It was an adventure. It was a new kind of love.

Review of The Nexus Titus

The Titus, The Toy I Don’t Get

I am an anal toy novice, admittedly. I have had some success with the Sensual Bulb (which is not specifically for the bum, but works well there), in fact I sort of like that one. I decided a while back to try the other toy I received for that area and frankly I just don’t get this one.

The Titus is a rather small black hard plastic toy shaped in a sort of Y shape similarly to the Aneros, but with fewer curves and more ridges. First of all I think it is far too small to do anything. It is hard plastic, which is very uncomfortable. The ridges make it difficult and almost painful to insert and pull out. When the world of sex toys is full of such wonderful things like silicone why would you have this hard plastic… thing?

Also I may be missing the point because I have no idea what the little silver ball is for. I know it is supposed to sit on your perineum and sort of massage it, but that did nothing for me.

Looking at the Titus, considering the material and the size, I can’t understand why it is as expensive as it is.

It is certainly possible that I am not using it to its full extent or maybe I just don’t have a particularly sensitive “p-spot” or perhaps it is higher up or lower down or something, but I don’t get this toy.

I gave the Titus a college try. A few college tries. Then again I gave a few colleges a try so perhaps I am not that bright.

One star. So for this has been the only thing I’ve received from vibereview.com that I haven’t really enjoyed, but I think that might be more about me than the toy.

Half Jack

Dear readers, you need to know something: Jack is not my given name. It’s not very far from my given name, but until I started this web page very few people ever called me Jack.

But that’s what people do, isn’t it? When you write pretty words about tying girls up you take on an alias. The alias gets used more and it becomes a character. You write as the character and then you eventually meet people as the character and in a way you become the character, at least a little.

To be honest, though, Jack was really born a year and a half ago when my life fell apart and I had to rebuild myself emotionally. Call it a phoenix-like rebirth or perhaps Bionic Man like reboot, I became someone very different. I have different priorities now and different ways of handling things. I adjusted to being 31 and single and I came out of the whole drama a lot stronger and a lot more interesting.

Jack is decidedly more confident than I am. He can even be a little cocky. Jack doesn’t mind talking too loud about rather shocking things in public places. Jack has really good luck with the ladies. Jack is forward and direct and very honest.

Lately I find myself introducing myself as Jack, even in non-blog/sex-geek/sex+ situations. When I meet new people I just introduce myself as Jack and my friends kind of look at me strangely, but it’s not that far fetched. It’s a couple of letters, but it is amazing how much of an effect it can have.

Lately life seems all about changing and realizing things and finding myself and understanding my desires. I am accepting a lot of things about myself, things that I’ve denied and things that I convinced myself weren’t true. Sometimes it is as easy as just letting go and accepting certain kinks. Sometimes it is deeper and it means admitting that certain feelings are ok to have. It also means allowing myself to get into new kinds of relationships. It’s tricky.

Ever since I started this, though, I have felt like my life has been amplified. Everything is far more intense and I am not just talking about sex and relationships. The world seems more accessible, things seem more vivid, life seems better. I used to feel so restrained by all of these rules that I enforced on myself and now it seems like every time I come to one of these self imposed walls I am able to look at it and judge with new eyes if it is something valid or not. I feel free.

So what does this all mean? I have no idea. I guess I am just taking some time to appreciate Jack. He certainly isn’t perfect, but I certainly like him.

Tagged!

I was tagged by the ridiculously hot and charming Thursday, whose pictures and words (and breasts and legs and ass) often devastate me.

The Rules are:

  • Link to your tagger and list these rules on your blog.
  • Share 7 facts about yourself on your blog - some random, some weird.
  • Tag 7 people at the end of your post by leaving their names as well as links to their blog.
  • Let them know they have been tagged by leaving a comment on their blog.

My list:

  1. I like all kinds of girls. I have found that this is often hard for girls to understand. I like big girls and little girls, so when I was dating a relatively skinny girl and she found out I had some chubby girl porn on my computer she though “I must be fat, that’s why you like me!” and when I was dating a chubby girl and commented on a tiny girl being hot she said “If you like girls like that, why are you dating me?”. Also I have been with girls as tall as 6′ and as short as 4′11″. Even my constant of “glasses and big tits” hasn’t held up lately.
  2. I have no piercing or tattoos. I dated someone for a long time who was covered in tattoos (10!) and I really love the look of thick black and red ink on skin. I have a few tattoos I want to get, but I am waiting until I am sure (i.e. it has been about 5 years of me thinking about it and I still haven’t done it.)
  3. People seem to inherently trust me. If often makes me feel like I need to be extra careful. People are constantly telling me secrets. I kind of love being the keeper of secrets.
  4. I had a criminal youth. I was a compulsive liar as a kid. My head still thinks like that sometimes, but I keep it very much under control. I try to be almost annoyingly honest now. Truth still has a ring of novelty on my tongue.
  5. The thing I hate most in life is probably corporate chain restaurants.
  6. Almost all of my close friends are working on Masters or PhDs and are on some form of psycho-pharmacology. I will probably never go for any sort of higher degree and I’ve never been in therapy.
  7. I took ballet as a child, as well as tap dancing.

I tag:

  1. Mariella, because I will take any excuse to tag my babygirl. She’d better do this because she doesn’t post nearly enough.
  2. D (of Narration by D) because it’s only far that since Thursday tagged me that I should tag her husband.
  3. Wendy, as an apology for the fact she will never get to do me in the butt like she wants.
  4. Janie, because she doesn’t post enough.
  5. Jay, because his recent review of the Aneros is almost identical to the review I am about to post about the Titus.
  6. Smutty Steff, because she is awesome and her tweets help keep me sane all day.
  7. Desiree, because she s awesome and she is going to come play Scrabble with me sometime soon.