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Dirty stories by Jack Stratton

Mister McIntyre’s Secret, Part Ten

I don’t remember the train ride home.

I don’t remember Penn Station or the cab or opening the door to my apartment. All I know is that I saw things on a Sunday in Autumn. I wrote them down in a little book and I gave them away and then I was lying in my dingy little bed.

I felt very still and very cool and very much a different person. At some point I stopped shaking. At some point I stopped crying. Now it was like I had woken up and there was dew on everything and everything was new.

I’d slept though; harder that I can ever remember sleeping. I’m not sure if I dreamed though. What can you dream about after a day like that?

When I got up I showered and touched my body. For the first time I realized how odd it was that in all that time in Mister McIntyre’s world no one touched me; not really. Not like they touched each other. Before I knew it the water was scalding hot and the bathroom was filled with steam and Eloise was banging on the door and yelling that she was going to be late.

I wore one of the skirts Marcy gave me. A pair a shoes I’d gotten for a wedding. A red blouse I bought a while ago but never had the courage to wear. Even the bra Marcy gave me and some underwear I bought for a date once. I treated myself to a blueberry muffin and I was still at work fifteen minutes early.

In the office I slipped a page into my typewriter and closed my eyes and smelled the perfume Holly, the girl in the next office, wore. Something soft and floral and French. She was always pretty and sweet. I smiled at her and she smiled back and gave me a quizzical little look.

Then the door slammed. The stomping. He was coming like a storm. I told myself to look up, look him in the eye and I surprised myself when I did.

“Good morning Mister McIntyre,” I said as boldly as I could.

He took the mail I handed him and let a half smile slip from his mask.

“Eleven o’clock with Mister Murphy. Lunch at one with your accountant. Drinks at four with–” our eyes met again.

“Coffee in fifteen, then get me my lawyer on the phone,” he took his mail and as he opened his door he looked back, “nice blouse.”

I was Cleopatra. I was the queen of the world.

Maybe I expected something to change. For him to do something to me. After the comment on my blouse the day went as it always did. He was busy, I was busy, though maybe I wasn’t as nervous as usual. In fact I was floating on a cloud.

On the train home the memories came as I watched the gray sky out the window.

He beat her. He beat her like I’ve never seen anyone beaten and she took it. Is it silly to think that I was so proud of her I nearly cried?

She did cry, at the end. All those blows with her own riding crop. His huge hand on her throat, on her face, on her bottom. Then he was holding her and it was like I was watching the most intense movie ever made. He held her as she cried and he kissed her tears away and she pulled his clothes off.

And then there it was.

I almost jumped out of my skin when Trudy touched my arm. “Breathe,” she said. I realize I hadn’t for a very long time.

There it was. Mister McIntyre’s… every word for it is a bad word. There it was half hard, I guess. Though I couldn’t imagine it bigger or harder. Marcy looked at it with greedy eyes and then she was burying her face in his lap.

“Write,” Chase whispered into my ear.

I tried to get it down, but I didn’t have the words. I’d never really seen one. Well, at summer camp there were some boys who went skinny dipping. Matthew Farrow, my prom date. He pulled it out and I touched it for a second before getting out of his car and running home.

None of them looked like Mister McIntyre’s though. It was the most beautiful thing I’d ever seen.

Marcy had it. She sucked it. I couldn’t even be jealous. I couldn’t imagine anyone being in front of it and not sucking it. It was like art watching it slide in and out of her mouth.

Then he pushed her onto the floor. Her legs splayed when she landed. Purple bruises on her thighs. The pink of her. Different than mine, I could see the wetness from my chair. I think I could even smell her.

Then, when Mister McIntyre got on top of her, something happened. My heart started hurting. My head started spinning. When I heard Marcy moan and then they were moving, rutting, and it was all too much. I couldn’t write. I wasn’t supposed to watch, not after she cried. Not after she took all that. I was just a stupid girl. I was just a stupid virgin.

Then, just like that, I was up and out of the room.

I heard Trudy laugh, I think. Chase said “stop,” but I was already up and out the door and running down the hall and crying. Then I was outside, on the huge porch. Out with the crickets and the bees and my heart and my mind out of control. Outside in a dress that wasn’t mine, peeking into a life that wasn’t mine. I was in a world that wasn’t mine.

No one came for me, not for two hours or so. When Trudy and Chase finally came out of the house they looked like they’d showered. Trudy was blushing and Chase looked tired. They said little. They didn’t yell at me or even say anything about the fact that I left. They just drove me to the train and gave me too much money for a cab.

Back in the subway car on my way home from the office, remembering, I wondered what would have happened if I stayed in that room. What would I have seen? What would he have done to the three of them, his play things, his little club? Would it have eventually have been my turn?

Did I want that? I wanted it so much much I shook just thinking about it. At the same time the idea of it was like looking over the Empire State Building and wanting to jump. It was too much. It was too scary and powerful. I was a mouse playing with lions.

Frankly there were few things I expected to find in my apartment less than Chase chatting up my roommate Eloise. I almost wanted to check the address of my apartment because I had to be in the wrong place.

No, there he was, so pretty in a white dress shirt and sweater vest. Dapper, but in some intrinsically different way than Mister McIntyre.

“Oh, there she is,” Chase said in his drawn out, somewhat feminine voice.

Eloise giggled and covered her mouth. In her hand was some fizzy pink drink.

“Hi Abigail!” Eloise chimed drunkenly.

I didn’t know what to say. I just stared.

“It’s a Sloe Gin Fizz,” Eloise said carefully through her drunkenness, enunciating each word. “Want one?”

I wanted to be mad, but frankly I hadn’t seen my dour roommate smile like that- well, ever. Chase put the cap on a bottle of liquor and patted Eloise on her knee. As he got up I could see her cheeks bright red from the intimacy of his casual touch.

“It was really lovely talking to you El, but I’ve got to chat with Abigail for a little bit. You’ll be here though? We can talk more about those records I told you about,”

Chase was charming, syrup sweet with an edge of sarcasm that I wasn’t sure Eloise got in her state. She was smiling and nodding to Chase, moon eyed. He was very pretty. Then she looked at me and raised her eyebrows and swooned.

Chase took me into my bedroom and sighed as he closed the door. He smiled and shook his head.

“That’s some roommate,” he said and winked.

I sat on my bed and wondered what he was doing in my apartment. I wondered what was next in this crazy ride. He could have done anything and I wouldn’t have been surprised. Ripped off his clothes, ripped off mine, snapped a picture, sang a song.

Though in classic style, silly me, silly Abigail was still surprised.

“Do you like dancing?” he said looking into my closet and flipping through my dresses.

“I- um- I guess,” I started.

He turned around with one of my older dresses, something I almost never wore. Why were these people so consumed with what I wore?

“Put this on, we’re going out,” he said with an expectant gleam in his eye.

And so I did. Because no matter my inner turmoil or my never ending introspection, I always did what they told me. Not just because that’s who I was and that’s what I did, but because what ever they told me seemed to be far more interesting than anything else in my life.

9 Comments

  1. More! More more more more more please.

  2. O. My. Goodness.

  3. i have to agree with syd here. more please <3

  4. This series is incredible! I think I held my breath through chapters 8-10

  5. Yoursweetestwetdream

    May 1, 2012 at 4:53 pm

    What happens next?!!! Will she ever really sleep with mr McIntyre!!! Will Marcy show back up?? This series is so reading and leaves you sooo far out on the edge.like they said more more more!!! Please. We have to get ours too you know

  6. I agree there has to be more! It can’t stop here!!! But then, those comments are from one year go :(

  7. Just reading this series… More please..

  8. Oh Oh please write more! I beg of you!

  9. oh yes, please continue!

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