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Half Jack

Dear readers, you need to know something: Jack is not my given name. It’s not very far from my given name, but until I started this web page very few people ever called me Jack.

But that’s what people do, isn’t it? When you write pretty words about tying girls up you take on an alias. The alias gets used more and it becomes a character. You write as the character and then you eventually meet people as the character and in a way you become the character, at least a little.

To be honest, though, Jack was really born a year and a half ago when my life fell apart and I had to rebuild myself emotionally. Call it a phoenix-like rebirth or perhaps Bionic Man like reboot, I became someone very different. I have different priorities now and different ways of handling things. I adjusted to being 31 and single and I came out of the whole drama a lot stronger and a lot more interesting.

Jack is decidedly more confident than I am. He can even be a little cocky. Jack doesn’t mind talking too loud about rather shocking things in public places. Jack has really good luck with the ladies. Jack is forward and direct and very honest.

Lately I find myself introducing myself as Jack, even in non-blog/sex-geek/sex+ situations. When I meet new people I just introduce myself as Jack and my friends kind of look at me strangely, but it’s not that far fetched. It’s a couple of letters, but it is amazing how much of an effect it can have.

Lately life seems all about changing and realizing things and finding myself and understanding my desires. I am accepting a lot of things about myself, things that I’ve denied and things that I convinced myself weren’t true. Sometimes it is as easy as just letting go and accepting certain kinks. Sometimes it is deeper and it means admitting that certain feelings are ok to have. It also means allowing myself to get into new kinds of relationships. It’s tricky.

Ever since I started this, though, I have felt like my life has been amplified. Everything is far more intense and I am not just talking about sex and relationships. The world seems more accessible, things seem more vivid, life seems better. I used to feel so restrained by all of these rules that I enforced on myself and now it seems like every time I come to one of these self imposed walls I am able to look at it and judge with new eyes if it is something valid or not. I feel free.

So what does this all mean? I have no idea. I guess I am just taking some time to appreciate Jack. He certainly isn’t perfect, but I certainly like him.

29 Comments

  1. I totally know what you mean. BBG has taken on a life of her own and I always thought of her as the cooler, braver, hotter version of ME. Lately, the line is very thin between the two.

  2. I totally know what you mean. BBG has taken on a life of her own and I always thought of her as the cooler, braver, hotter version of ME. Lately, the line is very thin between the two.

  3. I totally know what you mean. BBG has taken on a life of her own and I always thought of her as the cooler, braver, hotter version of ME. Lately, the line is very thin between the two.

  4. I totally know what you mean. BBG has taken on a life of her own and I always thought of her as the cooler, braver, hotter version of ME. Lately, the line is very thin between the two.

  5. I stopped thinking of Ellie as another person a long time ago but that sort of thing comes with time. As someone that has known you since before you were Jack, I like both of you.

  6. I stopped thinking of Ellie as another person a long time ago but that sort of thing comes with time. As someone that has known you since before you were Jack, I like both of you.

  7. @ellie, you’ve called me out on being different as “Jack” as opposed to regular old me. I kind of get a kick out of that.

    We both like you! We could have a pretty easy threeway!

  8. @ellie, you’ve called me out on being different as “Jack” as opposed to regular old me. I kind of get a kick out of that.

    We both like you! We could have a pretty easy threeway!

  9. Hello! Nice to meet you Jack. hehe

    Good post. Bit schizophrenic this whole “anonymous” blogging can be, eh? My blogging name, Eliot Bodem, is nothing like my actual name. Truth be told, I rather like the name Eliot and wish it was really mine. Oh, well. It’s fun to use the name for my blog anyway.

  10. Hello! Nice to meet you Jack. hehe

    Good post. Bit schizophrenic this whole “anonymous” blogging can be, eh? My blogging name, Eliot Bodem, is nothing like my actual name. Truth be told, I rather like the name Eliot and wish it was really mine. Oh, well. It’s fun to use the name for my blog anyway.

  11. Hello! Nice to meet you Jack. hehe

    Good post. Bit schizophrenic this whole “anonymous” blogging can be, eh? My blogging name, Eliot Bodem, is nothing like my actual name. Truth be told, I rather like the name Eliot and wish it was really mine. Oh, well. It’s fun to use the name for my blog anyway.

  12. so hear you on this one. I look at what used to be a cover of anonymity as now my alter-ego … developed into something I probably never would have gone for on my own, but it gave me a lot of freedom to explore in ways that I just love. I’m so grateful for that.

  13. so hear you on this one. I look at what used to be a cover of anonymity as now my alter-ego … developed into something I probably never would have gone for on my own, but it gave me a lot of freedom to explore in ways that I just love. I’m so grateful for that.

  14. so hear you on this one. I look at what used to be a cover of anonymity as now my alter-ego … developed into something I probably never would have gone for on my own, but it gave me a lot of freedom to explore in ways that I just love. I’m so grateful for that.

  15. Wow. I didn’t really think of Ursula as being my alter-ego, but she talks about things that make The Real Me blush so I guess she kinda is the fun side of me. And no one but my husband knows about the blog–though he almost never reads it–so it allows me a certain amount of expression that I can’t get as a teacher in my everyday life. Being Ursula Brangwen also lets me embrace the childish side of me that always wanted to live in the world of books. Nerdy, but fun. And maybe a little saucy. It really is like a Lawrence novel.

  16. Wow. I didn’t really think of Ursula as being my alter-ego, but she talks about things that make The Real Me blush so I guess she kinda is the fun side of me. And no one but my husband knows about the blog–though he almost never reads it–so it allows me a certain amount of expression that I can’t get as a teacher in my everyday life. Being Ursula Brangwen also lets me embrace the childish side of me that always wanted to live in the world of books. Nerdy, but fun. And maybe a little saucy. It really is like a Lawrence novel.

  17. Wow – just reading all your stories I realise how lucky I am that when I was born my parents decided to name me little miss trouble, just so I’d never need to choose a ‘sex blog’ name for myself. Sometimes it can get embarrassing, of course – but good ol’ trouble can handle it ;)

    Okay, I didn’t know the pre-Jack Jack, but definitely like the Jack of the past few weeks – he’s hot *and* lovely all at the same time!

  18. Wow – just reading all your stories I realise how lucky I am that when I was born my parents decided to name me little miss trouble, just so I’d never need to choose a ‘sex blog’ name for myself. Sometimes it can get embarrassing, of course – but good ol’ trouble can handle it ;)

    Okay, I didn’t know the pre-Jack Jack, but definitely like the Jack of the past few weeks – he’s hot *and* lovely all at the same time!

  19. Wow – just reading all your stories I realise how lucky I am that when I was born my parents decided to name me little miss trouble, just so I’d never need to choose a ‘sex blog’ name for myself. Sometimes it can get embarrassing, of course – but good ol’ trouble can handle it ;)

    Okay, I didn’t know the pre-Jack Jack, but definitely like the Jack of the past few weeks – he’s hot *and* lovely all at the same time!

  20. I completely agree with you Jack. Autumn Seave was just a psuedonym fo me when I first started sex blogging and writing erotica. But now, that is who I am when I write stories, blog posts, etc. If I get an email where the person knows my real name (like a client from my text writing business) it confuses me at first. And I don’t like anyone to use my real name when I concerns my “other” life.

  21. I completely agree with you Jack. Autumn Seave was just a psuedonym fo me when I first started sex blogging and writing erotica. But now, that is who I am when I write stories, blog posts, etc. If I get an email where the person knows my real name (like a client from my text writing business) it confuses me at first. And I don’t like anyone to use my real name when I concerns my “other” life.

  22. I completely agree with you Jack. Autumn Seave was just a psuedonym fo me when I first started sex blogging and writing erotica. But now, that is who I am when I write stories, blog posts, etc. If I get an email where the person knows my real name (like a client from my text writing business) it confuses me at first. And I don’t like anyone to use my real name when I concerns my “other” life.

  23. I completely agree with you Jack. Autumn Seave was just a psuedonym fo me when I first started sex blogging and writing erotica. But now, that is who I am when I write stories, blog posts, etc. If I get an email where the person knows my real name (like a client from my text writing business) it confuses me at first. And I don’t like anyone to use my real name when I concerns my “other” life.

  24. This is pretty interesting. As newly minted sex bloggers, my girlfriend and I have found it somewhat awkward at first using the fake names we chose. Though that may be a product of the fact that our pseudonyms are totally different than our real names (Dylan in honor of Dylan Thomas and Ella in honor of Ella Fitzgerald. A couple of our personal heroes.) I can’t say yet how different Dylan and Ella will be from the real us, though I think we’re hoping they just become me and my girl with different titles. But they may begin to live on their own, as Jack has.

  25. This is pretty interesting. As newly minted sex bloggers, my girlfriend and I have found it somewhat awkward at first using the fake names we chose. Though that may be a product of the fact that our pseudonyms are totally different than our real names (Dylan in honor of Dylan Thomas and Ella in honor of Ella Fitzgerald. A couple of our personal heroes.) I can’t say yet how different Dylan and Ella will be from the real us, though I think we’re hoping they just become me and my girl with different titles. But they may begin to live on their own, as Jack has.

  26. Pretty late for a comment, but I meant to leave one then never got around to it.

    I definitely empathize with you on this – when I first started blogging I felt very ‘uncomfortable’ with my blogger name, like it didn’t really fit, or wasn’t really me. But the more I wrote, the more I felt like my name was really *mine*, and now I’m increasingly thinking of myself as Wilhelmina.

    Also started blogging about when I had to deal with some uncomfortable relationship things and self-esteem things, so my name is also a mark of rebuilding confidence and all of that.

    Jack is a nice name. Half Jack is a great song, too.

  27. Pretty late for a comment, but I meant to leave one then never got around to it.

    I definitely empathize with you on this – when I first started blogging I felt very ‘uncomfortable’ with my blogger name, like it didn’t really fit, or wasn’t really me. But the more I wrote, the more I felt like my name was really *mine*, and now I’m increasingly thinking of myself as Wilhelmina.

    Also started blogging about when I had to deal with some uncomfortable relationship things and self-esteem things, so my name is also a mark of rebuilding confidence and all of that.

    Jack is a nice name. Half Jack is a great song, too.

  28. Pretty late for a comment, but I meant to leave one then never got around to it.

    I definitely empathize with you on this – when I first started blogging I felt very ‘uncomfortable’ with my blogger name, like it didn’t really fit, or wasn’t really me. But the more I wrote, the more I felt like my name was really *mine*, and now I’m increasingly thinking of myself as Wilhelmina.

    Also started blogging about when I had to deal with some uncomfortable relationship things and self-esteem things, so my name is also a mark of rebuilding confidence and all of that.

    Jack is a nice name. Half Jack is a great song, too.

  29. I totally get what your saying here, i never would have thought cute lil’ Innocent me would have turned into sexy bad ass Blythe. But I’m glad i did. :)

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